Ok.. This has nothing to do with the assigned work for the blogs but it certainly affects HOW I work..I've noticed this pattern in each school year that I'll totally fail one of the quarters and maybe a credit if not any. Last year it was second quarter. I dont remember if I was passing the classes but my attendance sucked and in the last week of the quarter I was sure I had enough absences that I'd fail all the classes so I just didnt come the last week. I'd just wake up and find no reason to even get out of bed and go to school..(like why go when Im not going to earn any credits..ya kno..)
Now it seems like THIS quarter is that quarter, where I just find it hard to get my head back into school and focus on my work. Like in poetry class. Whenever I get free time to write poems I'll either get distracted or just get lost in my daydreams. And when i try to focus and just try to write something. I'd be just angry and frustrating writings, something that Im not proud to read, and it'll never come out any good. Now I feel that I've got so much work that when I do try to write I'll try to rush my thoughts and get a headache and not anything that I would call "poetry" because it would just be my angry rants again..auhh.
I know right now I cant really write anything good but I still have the ability to read. I know its a little late for picking a book to read for this assignment..but if I pick a book I like I'd have no problem reading it. Its hard to find books i like because I'm picky.. I like books that are like real life..or uh like can actually happen in real life. I remember my friend had this one audiobook on his ipod and when he let me borrow it I listened to it.. The story was about this kid who grew up in new york in the 70s. It talked about how he went through the foster care system and all these different characters he met that influenced him. i listened to most of it but then I gave the ipod back to my friend before i could finish the audiobook. i would like to read a story kinda like that but not exactly. I just want it to sound real enough so that it sounds like a real story. Im might go to the library today, if my mom lets me borrow her card because i lost mine, and try to find a good book.so hopefully i will...
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Thank you so much for posting such a thoughtful blog. It helps me to hear your thoughts and know where you're coming from. If you'd like, we can start anew in poetry and I'll start you with a blank slate. If things go well, we can add in extra assignments so you could work for a full credit, instead of a half. I will do whatever I can to support your efforts to come back from a challenging start to the term. I believe you are a very gifted writer. Try to approach each poem as a new start, not as the poem that could be one of many. Let each poem speak for itself and don't worry that it has to fulfill this or that expectation. If you are writing well and giving your brain space to process and create art, well, then I'm awfully happy and will support that.
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